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"Hmm... So, do you have violent thoughts when you're not hunting? Urges to push people out windows, off balconies, esc?" Dr. Cross asked.
From time to time there are times when I just want to slit peoples thought, but." Cassia start's to think about a response.
"People you see around the ship? Your friends?"
"There are days I see myself killing my friends, the crew burning the ship and even joining the pirates. Because a part of my wants to be a criminal and just kill, but I meditate but there are days were my meditation doesn't work & I rely on drinking and some pills. “Cassia looks at Winter
"So doc do you have any advice for me, to make me not want to lose my bloody mind?"
"Well... You may have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder... But it's different than most I've seen..." Camellia mumbled to herself, "Do you... Try to avoid places where you think you might hurt people? Do you think you're a monster for feeling this way?"
"No, I don't think i'm a monster for thinking this way. Hell I go to places were those urges are strong, mostly because those places are filled with criminals."
"I think you could have Harmful OCD, which is when someone is plagued by horrible thoughts of killing people or loved ones uncontrollably and avoid places where that happens... But you actually like killing and hurting people... HOCD sufferers are usually terrified of killing people..." Camellia explained, "Do you... Do have anyone you think you would protect with your life? That you love and want to keep safe no matter what? Boyfriend, girlfriend, family?"
Cassia thinks for a second and answers immediately "Brigid O Brian. I love Brigid there is nothing I wouldn't do for her, I will protect her with my life and I will not let anyone harm her."
"Oh really? Interesting..." She smiled for a second, before returning to her neutral expression, "Hmm... Have you ever felt remorse over an action that you think caused someone else's death? Have you ever felt guilty that you couldn't save someone?"
Cassia smile fades "Yea, years ago I lost a squad that I was the leader of. They trusted me to get them out of there, but they gave their lives to save me and I wish I could have saved them."
"That's good... If you want my professional, medical opinion... I don't think there'sanything wrong with you at all... Well, nothing major at least..." Winter smiled, "You're regret over your lost friends proves that you can feel empathy towards others, which means you're not a Sociopath... You're not a Psychopath because of your love of Brigid... HOCD doesn't check out either..."
"Wait so you’re telling me I’m fine, there's nothing wrong with me majorly?"
"No, I don't think so... I think you're just a person who loves to give criminals what you think they deserve... Personally, I don't agree with it, no such thing as Good and Evil in this world, just grey, everyone's grey..." She sat her clipboard down, "And everyone can change... Dolling hatred to those that doll hatred only makes people want to doll hatred to you... And the only way to break that cycle is for someone to care... For someone to forgive... For someone to believe in them..."
"Hum, well then thanks for the input doctor." Cassia stands up "Thanks for your words, I don't think I will ever be civil but it's just good to talk about my....well the state of my head and get some things off my cheats."
Of course, I'm always here if you need to talk alright? It's not weak to talk about how you feel." Cammy smiled calmly.
"Yea i'll keep that in doc, anyway I have some training to do you have a good one doc."
"You too... And good luck with Brigid." Winter winked,then made a zipping gesture near her mouth.
"Yea best keep what I said about Brigid quiet, and don't ever mention it."
"You have my word as a medical professional."
"Thank you, you have a good one doc. Cassia leaves the room
From time to time there are times when I just want to slit peoples thought, but." Cassia start's to think about a response.
"People you see around the ship? Your friends?"
"There are days I see myself killing my friends, the crew burning the ship and even joining the pirates. Because a part of my wants to be a criminal and just kill, but I meditate but there are days were my meditation doesn't work & I rely on drinking and some pills. “Cassia looks at Winter
"So doc do you have any advice for me, to make me not want to lose my bloody mind?"
"Well... You may have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder... But it's different than most I've seen..." Camellia mumbled to herself, "Do you... Try to avoid places where you think you might hurt people? Do you think you're a monster for feeling this way?"
"No, I don't think i'm a monster for thinking this way. Hell I go to places were those urges are strong, mostly because those places are filled with criminals."
"I think you could have Harmful OCD, which is when someone is plagued by horrible thoughts of killing people or loved ones uncontrollably and avoid places where that happens... But you actually like killing and hurting people... HOCD sufferers are usually terrified of killing people..." Camellia explained, "Do you... Do have anyone you think you would protect with your life? That you love and want to keep safe no matter what? Boyfriend, girlfriend, family?"
Cassia thinks for a second and answers immediately "Brigid O Brian. I love Brigid there is nothing I wouldn't do for her, I will protect her with my life and I will not let anyone harm her."
"Oh really? Interesting..." She smiled for a second, before returning to her neutral expression, "Hmm... Have you ever felt remorse over an action that you think caused someone else's death? Have you ever felt guilty that you couldn't save someone?"
Cassia smile fades "Yea, years ago I lost a squad that I was the leader of. They trusted me to get them out of there, but they gave their lives to save me and I wish I could have saved them."
"That's good... If you want my professional, medical opinion... I don't think there'sanything wrong with you at all... Well, nothing major at least..." Winter smiled, "You're regret over your lost friends proves that you can feel empathy towards others, which means you're not a Sociopath... You're not a Psychopath because of your love of Brigid... HOCD doesn't check out either..."
"Wait so you’re telling me I’m fine, there's nothing wrong with me majorly?"
"No, I don't think so... I think you're just a person who loves to give criminals what you think they deserve... Personally, I don't agree with it, no such thing as Good and Evil in this world, just grey, everyone's grey..." She sat her clipboard down, "And everyone can change... Dolling hatred to those that doll hatred only makes people want to doll hatred to you... And the only way to break that cycle is for someone to care... For someone to forgive... For someone to believe in them..."
"Hum, well then thanks for the input doctor." Cassia stands up "Thanks for your words, I don't think I will ever be civil but it's just good to talk about my....well the state of my head and get some things off my cheats."
Of course, I'm always here if you need to talk alright? It's not weak to talk about how you feel." Cammy smiled calmly.
"Yea i'll keep that in doc, anyway I have some training to do you have a good one doc."
"You too... And good luck with Brigid." Winter winked,then made a zipping gesture near her mouth.
"Yea best keep what I said about Brigid quiet, and don't ever mention it."
"You have my word as a medical professional."
"Thank you, you have a good one doc. Cassia leaves the room