Not-so-secret Secrets: Part Two
Ayame bit her lip. I'm not a very good liar, that's the problem. "I'm... alright. Hey, um, Ammeilia, this might sound like it's a little out of no where, but, uh... I have this friend who was... was hiding something from me. Something about herself. I was annoyed when I found out about it, but it was something kinda personal, and she said people made fun of her for it in the past, and she said she'd lost friends before. She said she didn't want to lose me, and that's why she didn't tell me. Do... do you think I should still be mad at her?"
"Well, it's just a little thing right? Her bad experiences in the past are causing her to keep secrets from people she cares about. I would've been a little mad, understandably, but a true friend would find it in their heart to forgive, especially if it's just a little secret." Ammelia answered.
Ayame laughed nervously. "Yeah, um, that's a good... good point. So, about Alexia... I mean Jessica... well, both I guess. They're a sweet girl. Girls, I mean. I mean, Jessie is, Alexia is a bit more crass, but she's cool too. I... well, Jessie has probably talked about her how people bullied her as a kid. So if... if she was hiding... not that she is, but... you know what I'm... saying?"
"Uhm... No." Ammy said simply.
Ayame sighed. "God, she's gonna hate me." She cleared her throat. "Look, Ammelia, there is... is something Jessica has wanted to tell you. So much so, I... I thought she already had. But she was afraid to say it, because of those... reasons I mentioned. You know, bullies, and broken friendships and what not. A-and the only reason I know is by accident. In fact, only a few people here know about it, and most of them found out by accident. I think Modya is the only one she came out and told directly, and that was more Alexia's doing."
Ammy couldn't hold in a giggle, "Alright, what is it?"
"Well... The reason you haven't met them both at the same time is they're... kinda the same person. I mean, Alexia isn't some fake name Jessica uses, like some kind of alias. I'm not sure of all the details, I'm no psychologist. But from what I know, Alex is sort of a second person in Jessica's mind. It's like the movies where a person has two minds that are constantly fighting for control, except Jessie and Alex get along, so they don't fight over the body, but rather share it."
"Hey Ayame, can I let you in on something?" Ammelia asked, taking a few steps closer to her.
"Um... s-sure." Ayame smiled nervously.
Ammelia quickly looked to both sides before leaning close to Ayame's ear, "I've known about Alexia for months, I've just been messing with her!"
Ayame's eyes widened. "You... you have." The Asian woman let out a sigh of relief. "Well... that explains your quick answer. You don't know how much she'd be relieved to know that. She kept going back and forth between how you'd react if she did and didn't tell you. But... how did you find out?"
"I'm blind, not deaf." Ammy stated, "When you've been Blind and Mute for most of your life you get pretty good at hearing things."
"I see... you more then anyone would be able to pick up the that their voices are practically the same, even if they talk differently." Ayame scratched her head, suddenly feeling embarrassed that it had to be spelled out to her when this much younger woman so easily picked it up.
"I also heard a lot of gossip around base. When I heard someone talking about a scientist with split personality disorder, I kinda put two and two together... or one and one, in this case." Ammelia smiled.
Ayame smiled back, and laughed heartily, patting the young soldier on the back. "Well, rumors do travel, but you're still quicker then I am, that's for sure. But I do have to ask, why haven't you said anything to Jessica?"
"I guess I wanted her to work up the courage to tell me herself and then be pleasantly surprised that I knew and still accepted her." She shrugged, "Is that wrong of me?"
Ayame thought for a moment, then shrugged back. "I don't think so. You just want to give her a chance to do it herself. If you want, I won't tell her we talked about this."
"Thanks, Ayame. It's been wonderful talking to you! Maybe I could show you how to use a sniper rifle a bit more!" Ammy replied cheerfully.
"I'd love that," Ayame said. "And good luck with Jessie and Alex."
"Hopefully I'll actually get to meet Alexia soon." Ammelia added.
"Something tells me you definitely will." Ayame returned to her weapon, taking careful aim and using the advice she had been given."
Take your time, Steady your shot, and hold your breath before you fire..." Ammelia said trying to teach Ayame as calmly as Dorian had taught her.
Ayame held her breath, and tried to dig deep and be patient. She took longer then she probably should have, but Ammelia said nothing to discourage her. Finally, she pulled the trigger, and hit the target, a few cm to the right of the center. Not a bull's eye by any account, but enough to put a smile on Ayame's face. "Wow... it worked."
Ammelia smiled brightly, putting a hand on her shoulder. "See? Keep practicing with that and your accuracy with these weapons will greatly improve!" Ayame nodded and continued practicing in silence, all the while Ammelia watched and gave her the occasional words of advice.
Ayame bit her lip. I'm not a very good liar, that's the problem. "I'm... alright. Hey, um, Ammeilia, this might sound like it's a little out of no where, but, uh... I have this friend who was... was hiding something from me. Something about herself. I was annoyed when I found out about it, but it was something kinda personal, and she said people made fun of her for it in the past, and she said she'd lost friends before. She said she didn't want to lose me, and that's why she didn't tell me. Do... do you think I should still be mad at her?"
"Well, it's just a little thing right? Her bad experiences in the past are causing her to keep secrets from people she cares about. I would've been a little mad, understandably, but a true friend would find it in their heart to forgive, especially if it's just a little secret." Ammelia answered.
Ayame laughed nervously. "Yeah, um, that's a good... good point. So, about Alexia... I mean Jessica... well, both I guess. They're a sweet girl. Girls, I mean. I mean, Jessie is, Alexia is a bit more crass, but she's cool too. I... well, Jessie has probably talked about her how people bullied her as a kid. So if... if she was hiding... not that she is, but... you know what I'm... saying?"
"Uhm... No." Ammy said simply.
Ayame sighed. "God, she's gonna hate me." She cleared her throat. "Look, Ammelia, there is... is something Jessica has wanted to tell you. So much so, I... I thought she already had. But she was afraid to say it, because of those... reasons I mentioned. You know, bullies, and broken friendships and what not. A-and the only reason I know is by accident. In fact, only a few people here know about it, and most of them found out by accident. I think Modya is the only one she came out and told directly, and that was more Alexia's doing."
Ammy couldn't hold in a giggle, "Alright, what is it?"
"Well... The reason you haven't met them both at the same time is they're... kinda the same person. I mean, Alexia isn't some fake name Jessica uses, like some kind of alias. I'm not sure of all the details, I'm no psychologist. But from what I know, Alex is sort of a second person in Jessica's mind. It's like the movies where a person has two minds that are constantly fighting for control, except Jessie and Alex get along, so they don't fight over the body, but rather share it."
"Hey Ayame, can I let you in on something?" Ammelia asked, taking a few steps closer to her.
"Um... s-sure." Ayame smiled nervously.
Ammelia quickly looked to both sides before leaning close to Ayame's ear, "I've known about Alexia for months, I've just been messing with her!"
Ayame's eyes widened. "You... you have." The Asian woman let out a sigh of relief. "Well... that explains your quick answer. You don't know how much she'd be relieved to know that. She kept going back and forth between how you'd react if she did and didn't tell you. But... how did you find out?"
"I'm blind, not deaf." Ammy stated, "When you've been Blind and Mute for most of your life you get pretty good at hearing things."
"I see... you more then anyone would be able to pick up the that their voices are practically the same, even if they talk differently." Ayame scratched her head, suddenly feeling embarrassed that it had to be spelled out to her when this much younger woman so easily picked it up.
"I also heard a lot of gossip around base. When I heard someone talking about a scientist with split personality disorder, I kinda put two and two together... or one and one, in this case." Ammelia smiled.
Ayame smiled back, and laughed heartily, patting the young soldier on the back. "Well, rumors do travel, but you're still quicker then I am, that's for sure. But I do have to ask, why haven't you said anything to Jessica?"
"I guess I wanted her to work up the courage to tell me herself and then be pleasantly surprised that I knew and still accepted her." She shrugged, "Is that wrong of me?"
Ayame thought for a moment, then shrugged back. "I don't think so. You just want to give her a chance to do it herself. If you want, I won't tell her we talked about this."
"Thanks, Ayame. It's been wonderful talking to you! Maybe I could show you how to use a sniper rifle a bit more!" Ammy replied cheerfully.
"I'd love that," Ayame said. "And good luck with Jessie and Alex."
"Hopefully I'll actually get to meet Alexia soon." Ammelia added.
"Something tells me you definitely will." Ayame returned to her weapon, taking careful aim and using the advice she had been given."
Take your time, Steady your shot, and hold your breath before you fire..." Ammelia said trying to teach Ayame as calmly as Dorian had taught her.
Ayame held her breath, and tried to dig deep and be patient. She took longer then she probably should have, but Ammelia said nothing to discourage her. Finally, she pulled the trigger, and hit the target, a few cm to the right of the center. Not a bull's eye by any account, but enough to put a smile on Ayame's face. "Wow... it worked."
Ammelia smiled brightly, putting a hand on her shoulder. "See? Keep practicing with that and your accuracy with these weapons will greatly improve!" Ayame nodded and continued practicing in silence, all the while Ammelia watched and gave her the occasional words of advice.