Doubts
X-COM Headquarters
Primary Mess Hall
August 14, 1200 Hours
"So what is taste?" Alice asked, staring at the fork full of what she was called were mashed potatoes, though they looked far different then what she had seen in her databases. "You know, besides the obvious answer."
Sunny thought for a moment. "Well... if by obvious you mean text book, there in lies the problem. When people are trying to describe something as being hard to explain, they usually compare it to describing a sense to someone without that sense. Like teaching sight to the blind. It is... something you'll have to learn for yourself. It is kinda... like doing something that gives us pleasure. For evolutionary reasons, I guess. You'll discover what it is, with time. For now, I've done the best I can to replicate my own taste-buds for you."
"Alright. Should be fun, I guess." Alice took a bite, and cringed. Slowly swallowing the mush, she muttered, "I... guess you don't like these potatoes, huh?"
"Nope." Sunny took a bite of her own, shuddering. She starred down at her plate, trying to stifle a sigh.
"Worried about Ayame?" Alice asked.
"N... no," Sunny lied, not even trying to make it sound convincing.
"Well, you shouldn't be," Alice insisted. "They have the best people working on her now. I'm sure she'll wake up from that surgery feeling even better then new." Sunny smiled, trying to cheer up. Sunny played with her food for a bit while Alice 'ate' hers. After a minute, Sunny looked around her, concerned. "What's wrong?"
"That guard covering for Ayame," Sunny answered. "Where did she go? I don't... think I need an escort anymore, but it is her job. She said she'd be right back."
"Maybe she was distracted by something," Alice offered.
"Maybe..." Sunny stood up. "I'm gonna go look for her. Don't... wonder off, okay."
Alice nodded with a smile, and Sunny quickly walked off. After a few moments, a middle-aged man in a lab coat sat next to her. "You're that hologram girl, right?" he asked.
"That's mean... though, I guess I'm the android girl now."
"Fascinating." The man reached out his hand. "May I?" Alice nodded, and placed her hand is his. He examined the texture and material carefully, smiling. "Amazing. Feels like real skin. Tell me, what are you made of?"
"Well," Alice started, smiling at the prospect of someone so interested in her. "My chassis is a carbon fiber skeleton, reenforced with by alien alloys, with latchment points for the artificial musculature. The muscles are vat-grown silicon colloids powered either by electrical stimulation. My power is supplied by a 30 kW hydrogen fuel cell with a life of about 500 days between it needs to be recharged. We considered an elerium powercell, but we felt X-COM needed it more then me. Besides, we can't make the elerium, so I would need to replace it if we ran out anyway."
"Very advanced," the scientist mused. "But you look so human. Feel so human. You even... smell so human."
Alice tilted her head at the odd comment, but said nothing on it. "Well, I asked Sunny to make me as human as possible. My skin is a special bio-mechanical substance meant to simulate real skin. My muscle layout and operation, as with many other internal function, are really close those of the human body too. I have a self-repair unit, and can go beyond human limitations, but I'll need replacement parts if I go too far. My mind is the most non-human part. My memory capacity includes one terabyte of fast cache buffer RAM and two petabytes of non-volatile memory."
"Just one of many things that makes so superior to the humans," The scientist said.
"Superior?" Alice tilted her head a bit more. "How so?"
"Your impressive mind," the scientist answered. Your smarter, faster, stronger, better coordinated. Better in every way."
"Those things don't make me better." Alice placed her hand on her chest. "It is ones kindness, how one treats others, that makes them better. Sunny taught me that the true judge of one's character is how good they are on the inside, not the outside. Compassion, trust, love."
The man leaned in close. "Taught you? Or programmed into you. How do you know those are your thought. She could have just told you learned that, when it really wasn't your choice at all."
Alice stammered a bit, not having learned to hide her emotions yet, and was visibly upset. "I... no. No, I trust Sunny. She wouldn't do that. We agreed, I'd make those choices..."
"Again, how can you trust your trust," the man interrupted, hiding a grin. "She could have programed you to think you trust her. Programmed you to trust X-COM as a whole. For example, your friend, Emily, was it? She's in so much trouble. Do really think she's as guilty as they think?"
Alice's eyes darted back and forth. "I... am sure that the Commander will find out the truth. She has to. I... trust..."
"Trust, trust, trust." The man rolled his eyes as he stood up. "What if she killed him for a good reason, and the Commander is prepared to dispose of her anyway." He leaned down close to her ear, no longer able to hide his big grin. "What if she has already sold out to them. Any of your other friends could be next. Ayame, Ammelia... even Sunny."
"I... I-I... trust..."
"You do that," the man said, waving his hand dismissively and walking away. "Just keep what we talked about in mind, in case the time comes when your trust falters and you have to defend yourself from this Legion.
Alice looked down sadly. Sunny returned a few minutes later with an irritated looking guard. Noting her android friends watery eyes, she asked, "Are you okay, Alice? Did something happen?"
The blond android slowly shook her head. "No... I'm fine. Probably... just a malfunction with my emotions..."
X-COM Headquarters
Primary Mess Hall
August 14, 1200 Hours
"So what is taste?" Alice asked, staring at the fork full of what she was called were mashed potatoes, though they looked far different then what she had seen in her databases. "You know, besides the obvious answer."
Sunny thought for a moment. "Well... if by obvious you mean text book, there in lies the problem. When people are trying to describe something as being hard to explain, they usually compare it to describing a sense to someone without that sense. Like teaching sight to the blind. It is... something you'll have to learn for yourself. It is kinda... like doing something that gives us pleasure. For evolutionary reasons, I guess. You'll discover what it is, with time. For now, I've done the best I can to replicate my own taste-buds for you."
"Alright. Should be fun, I guess." Alice took a bite, and cringed. Slowly swallowing the mush, she muttered, "I... guess you don't like these potatoes, huh?"
"Nope." Sunny took a bite of her own, shuddering. She starred down at her plate, trying to stifle a sigh.
"Worried about Ayame?" Alice asked.
"N... no," Sunny lied, not even trying to make it sound convincing.
"Well, you shouldn't be," Alice insisted. "They have the best people working on her now. I'm sure she'll wake up from that surgery feeling even better then new." Sunny smiled, trying to cheer up. Sunny played with her food for a bit while Alice 'ate' hers. After a minute, Sunny looked around her, concerned. "What's wrong?"
"That guard covering for Ayame," Sunny answered. "Where did she go? I don't... think I need an escort anymore, but it is her job. She said she'd be right back."
"Maybe she was distracted by something," Alice offered.
"Maybe..." Sunny stood up. "I'm gonna go look for her. Don't... wonder off, okay."
Alice nodded with a smile, and Sunny quickly walked off. After a few moments, a middle-aged man in a lab coat sat next to her. "You're that hologram girl, right?" he asked.
"That's mean... though, I guess I'm the android girl now."
"Fascinating." The man reached out his hand. "May I?" Alice nodded, and placed her hand is his. He examined the texture and material carefully, smiling. "Amazing. Feels like real skin. Tell me, what are you made of?"
"Well," Alice started, smiling at the prospect of someone so interested in her. "My chassis is a carbon fiber skeleton, reenforced with by alien alloys, with latchment points for the artificial musculature. The muscles are vat-grown silicon colloids powered either by electrical stimulation. My power is supplied by a 30 kW hydrogen fuel cell with a life of about 500 days between it needs to be recharged. We considered an elerium powercell, but we felt X-COM needed it more then me. Besides, we can't make the elerium, so I would need to replace it if we ran out anyway."
"Very advanced," the scientist mused. "But you look so human. Feel so human. You even... smell so human."
Alice tilted her head at the odd comment, but said nothing on it. "Well, I asked Sunny to make me as human as possible. My skin is a special bio-mechanical substance meant to simulate real skin. My muscle layout and operation, as with many other internal function, are really close those of the human body too. I have a self-repair unit, and can go beyond human limitations, but I'll need replacement parts if I go too far. My mind is the most non-human part. My memory capacity includes one terabyte of fast cache buffer RAM and two petabytes of non-volatile memory."
"Just one of many things that makes so superior to the humans," The scientist said.
"Superior?" Alice tilted her head a bit more. "How so?"
"Your impressive mind," the scientist answered. Your smarter, faster, stronger, better coordinated. Better in every way."
"Those things don't make me better." Alice placed her hand on her chest. "It is ones kindness, how one treats others, that makes them better. Sunny taught me that the true judge of one's character is how good they are on the inside, not the outside. Compassion, trust, love."
The man leaned in close. "Taught you? Or programmed into you. How do you know those are your thought. She could have just told you learned that, when it really wasn't your choice at all."
Alice stammered a bit, not having learned to hide her emotions yet, and was visibly upset. "I... no. No, I trust Sunny. She wouldn't do that. We agreed, I'd make those choices..."
"Again, how can you trust your trust," the man interrupted, hiding a grin. "She could have programed you to think you trust her. Programmed you to trust X-COM as a whole. For example, your friend, Emily, was it? She's in so much trouble. Do really think she's as guilty as they think?"
Alice's eyes darted back and forth. "I... am sure that the Commander will find out the truth. She has to. I... trust..."
"Trust, trust, trust." The man rolled his eyes as he stood up. "What if she killed him for a good reason, and the Commander is prepared to dispose of her anyway." He leaned down close to her ear, no longer able to hide his big grin. "What if she has already sold out to them. Any of your other friends could be next. Ayame, Ammelia... even Sunny."
"I... I-I... trust..."
"You do that," the man said, waving his hand dismissively and walking away. "Just keep what we talked about in mind, in case the time comes when your trust falters and you have to defend yourself from this Legion.
Alice looked down sadly. Sunny returned a few minutes later with an irritated looking guard. Noting her android friends watery eyes, she asked, "Are you okay, Alice? Did something happen?"
The blond android slowly shook her head. "No... I'm fine. Probably... just a malfunction with my emotions..."