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// MEMORY: WARMTH //
Amelia Fischer, 6
Home of Robert and Susan Fischer
Concord, New Hampshire, USA
August 3rd, 1997 - 7:21 AM
The sunlight glitters between the plastic slats of the window, inviting me to play, but I ignore it today. The smell of dew-covered grass and steaming pancakes waft from upstairs, but I run downstairs instead. Rushing through the halls, I bash my body into the office door downstairs, making a loud bang as I enter. My dad looks at me with a faint look of frustration, before I give him an excited smile and he returns in kind. I run around his desk and raise my hands up, knowing the move to get attention all too well.
“Whatcha doo-ooin’?” I ask.
“Daddy’s doing work right now, buttercup.”
“What kind of work?”
“Grown-up work. Why don't you go upstairs and play with Mommy before church?”
I hop up a little.
“But I want to watch you work!”
He placed his pen on the table with an audible clack, instantly swiveling to look at me. His arms lunged forwards and hooked under my arms, picking me up with a crackling giggle of delight. He put me down on his knee and looked back down at the papers as he rocked his leg up and down, bouncing me enough to placate me. I look down at his work, a mess of print, writing and black boring lines. I think about how my homework is more fun than his, and I put my hand on his cheek and rub his beard, happy with the feeling of it.
“I love you, daddy,” I said, grinning.
“I love you too, Amelia,” he replied with a glance towards me.
“Forever and ever?”
“No matter what, I’ll always love you,” with a more direct smile.
“What if…I draw on your face!”
I point at him to accentuate my statement. He looks at me earnestly and chuckles.
“I’ll still love you.”
“What iiif…I steal a fire truck!”
“Mmhmm, still love you.”
“What iiiiif…I run away and go to China!”
He looked quizzically at me, that one catching him off-guard. “How do you know what China is?”
“From the TV, it’s under the ground!”
“That’s right, right under the ground,” he laughed. “I bet you could dig to it if you really tried.”
“Mommy gets mad when I dig,” I look down at my feet and play with my fingernails.
“That’s because you dig through her flower gardens, dear.”
“Flowers are smelly, who wants flowers,” I sighed.
“Well, Mommy does, obviously. She needs them for church.”
“But church is bo-oo-ooring.”
“It’ll mean more to you when you’re older,” he looked at me. “It teaches you important things. Being nice to people around you, being happy with what you have, and not doing bad things.”
“I already know not to do bad things,” I puff my chest out in pride.
“Well, there might be some more bad things you learn about when you’re older.”
“But you’ll love me even if I do bad things?”
“No matter what, Amelia.”
“I love you no matter what, Daddy.”
I lay on his shoulder and put my arms around him. I meant it as much as he did. He continued to rock me, and I closed my eyes.
“But please don’t steal any fire trucks,” he whispered.
“I won’t…as long as you get me one for Christmas,” I say with a cocksure grin.
“I’ll see if Santa can grab one for you.”
I let out another happy giggle and lean against him as he does his work with one hand, the other around me. A couple minutes pass and my eyes begin to flutter, my voice begins to stiffen.
“Daddy…do I have to go to church with Mommy today?”
He looked at me briefly, cuddling him with half-lidded eyes and a cloudy stare.
“No, buttercup,” he replied.
“Really?”
“Mmhmm. You can sleep in, Mommy will understand.”
I sigh with contentment, only making a high-pitched and crackling yawn instead of responding.
“Why don’t you go back to sleep, sweetheart?”
“I want to stay here. Can I stay here?”
“Of course. You never have to leave,” he smiled.
“Thank you…”
After a couple minutes more, my eyes closed, and I fell asleep to the rocking of the chair and the faint scrawling of a ball-point pen, my hands clutched around my father.
…
It’s time to wake up, buttercup.
…
Amelia, it’s time to wake up.
…
Fischer, wake up!
Amelia Fischer, 6
Home of Robert and Susan Fischer
Concord, New Hampshire, USA
August 3rd, 1997 - 7:21 AM
The sunlight glitters between the plastic slats of the window, inviting me to play, but I ignore it today. The smell of dew-covered grass and steaming pancakes waft from upstairs, but I run downstairs instead. Rushing through the halls, I bash my body into the office door downstairs, making a loud bang as I enter. My dad looks at me with a faint look of frustration, before I give him an excited smile and he returns in kind. I run around his desk and raise my hands up, knowing the move to get attention all too well.
“Whatcha doo-ooin’?” I ask.
“Daddy’s doing work right now, buttercup.”
“What kind of work?”
“Grown-up work. Why don't you go upstairs and play with Mommy before church?”
I hop up a little.
“But I want to watch you work!”
He placed his pen on the table with an audible clack, instantly swiveling to look at me. His arms lunged forwards and hooked under my arms, picking me up with a crackling giggle of delight. He put me down on his knee and looked back down at the papers as he rocked his leg up and down, bouncing me enough to placate me. I look down at his work, a mess of print, writing and black boring lines. I think about how my homework is more fun than his, and I put my hand on his cheek and rub his beard, happy with the feeling of it.
“I love you, daddy,” I said, grinning.
“I love you too, Amelia,” he replied with a glance towards me.
“Forever and ever?”
“No matter what, I’ll always love you,” with a more direct smile.
“What if…I draw on your face!”
I point at him to accentuate my statement. He looks at me earnestly and chuckles.
“I’ll still love you.”
“What iiif…I steal a fire truck!”
“Mmhmm, still love you.”
“What iiiiif…I run away and go to China!”
He looked quizzically at me, that one catching him off-guard. “How do you know what China is?”
“From the TV, it’s under the ground!”
“That’s right, right under the ground,” he laughed. “I bet you could dig to it if you really tried.”
“Mommy gets mad when I dig,” I look down at my feet and play with my fingernails.
“That’s because you dig through her flower gardens, dear.”
“Flowers are smelly, who wants flowers,” I sighed.
“Well, Mommy does, obviously. She needs them for church.”
“But church is bo-oo-ooring.”
“It’ll mean more to you when you’re older,” he looked at me. “It teaches you important things. Being nice to people around you, being happy with what you have, and not doing bad things.”
“I already know not to do bad things,” I puff my chest out in pride.
“Well, there might be some more bad things you learn about when you’re older.”
“But you’ll love me even if I do bad things?”
“No matter what, Amelia.”
“I love you no matter what, Daddy.”
I lay on his shoulder and put my arms around him. I meant it as much as he did. He continued to rock me, and I closed my eyes.
“But please don’t steal any fire trucks,” he whispered.
“I won’t…as long as you get me one for Christmas,” I say with a cocksure grin.
“I’ll see if Santa can grab one for you.”
I let out another happy giggle and lean against him as he does his work with one hand, the other around me. A couple minutes pass and my eyes begin to flutter, my voice begins to stiffen.
“Daddy…do I have to go to church with Mommy today?”
He looked at me briefly, cuddling him with half-lidded eyes and a cloudy stare.
“No, buttercup,” he replied.
“Really?”
“Mmhmm. You can sleep in, Mommy will understand.”
I sigh with contentment, only making a high-pitched and crackling yawn instead of responding.
“Why don’t you go back to sleep, sweetheart?”
“I want to stay here. Can I stay here?”
“Of course. You never have to leave,” he smiled.
“Thank you…”
After a couple minutes more, my eyes closed, and I fell asleep to the rocking of the chair and the faint scrawling of a ball-point pen, my hands clutched around my father.
…
It’s time to wake up, buttercup.
…
Amelia, it’s time to wake up.
…
Fischer, wake up!