DarkGemini24601 & ZombieSplitter53: “Facing Fears”
X-COM Headquarters, Somewhere in Siberia
Primary Rec-room
Oct. 30th, 1600 Hours
“Hmmmm…” Jake tapped his pencil against his lip, looking at the scorched Ethereal mask with some disappointment. With part of it blown off, it was hard to translate the section that made up Ira’s exact title, or rank, or whatever the Ethereals called it. Sighing in defeat, he decided he’d just see if Emily could find out, and moved on to the mask of Ira’s lacky, this one much less fancy, and all the more easier to work on. “Should have worked on this one first,” he mumbled to himself, taking a drink from a glass of some fruity, fake-alcoholic drink the bartender had recommended to him.
“Nice collection you have there,” a familiar voice said from behind Jake.
Jake jumped a bit. “Atka!” He laughed nervously. “Sorry, I… I guess working on these masks, having them stare at me like this… kinda makes me jumpy.”
Atka shrugged. “Probably a rational response to them. Though you have to find it intriguing enough to study anyway, right?”
Jake nodded. “Yeah. I read somewhere that one way to understand a group of people is to study their language. Tells you how they think, what they find important, how simple or complex they find certain things.” He scrunched his nose a bit. “Probably… sounds boring, huh?”
Atka shook her head. “I can appreciate that. Brought you something, by the way.” Atka pulled an intricate carving out of a small bag, the falcon atop the sea turtle shell, and offered it to Jake.
Jake carefully took it, turning the masks towards the wall as though he didn’t want them to see it. “This is… this is really cool. Where did you get… d-did you make this?”
The Inuit woman smiled. “The latter is correct. Made one of these ‘guardian spirits’ for Ayame too, though I haven’t shown her yet.”
“Wow, I… wow…” Jake just stared at the carving for a moment, taking it in. “I don’t know what to say. No one has ever given me something like this. I mean… like, not even close. I… this is so…”
“Don’t sweat it. It’s just something I do for friends… though I will admit I put a lot of effort into these two,” Atka said dismissively.
“Yeah, I can see that.” Jake smiled at her. “Thank you. Really, I just… wish I had something to give you.”
“Well, I wouldn’t mind taking a look at those masks close up. The Ethereals are interesting, even if pretty much everything about their culture is out of wack,” the colonel stated.
“Of course.” Jake carefully put the carving to the side, and pushed the masks forward. “These are from the two Ethereals in Brazil. And I have others in my room. You can see them any time you wish. I was asked to translate them, so I have all of them except the one Dr. Anderson has.”
Atka looked over the masks with curiosity, noting the difference in design and ornamentation. “I can’t remember it exactly, but I know for certain that ‘Phobos’ had a mask far beyond these in terms of design.”
“Who, uh…” Jake leaned forward a bit. “Who’s Phobos?”
“Right, I just went over that in my head so far.” Atka chuckled. “I figured naming the leader of the Ethereals after the personification of fear was an apt description. He’s the one I met in my dream.”
“Really? How much of his mask do you remember?” Jake asked, hoping she didn’t take his question as a dismissal of how serious the situation had been. “Any symbols you could recreate for me would be useful.”
Atka closed her eyes for a moment. “I can try to sketch you something…” Borrowing Jake’s pencil, she started to draw a rough sketch of the mask, the memory unusually keen due to the unique circumstances of that fateful meeting.
Jake looked over the various symbols, rubbing his chin. “Wow, these… if you’re remembering these right, he sure is a complicated… this looks like a name… no, this is his name, I think. Which means his title is above… his name. Interesting. These are going to take me a while, but I’m… pretty sure I can translate them. Your ability to remember them sure helps.”
“Glad I could help, in any case,” Atka replied, finally laying the pencil to rest. “Wonder if this will give us any clues to his powers… I know he has a lot of it, but the only thing he used were those ‘binding’ threads that were probably just powerful telekinesis.”
Jake frowned, looking into Atka’s eyes. “I, um… I’m sure you’re probably getting tired of people asking you this by now, but are you okay? I know I wouldn’t be after an encounter like that. I know you’re stronger than me, but still.”
“I appreciate the concern, but yeah, I’m okay. I was a little shaken up… but even if I have to face Phobos, that’s something I have to do. I won’t run from that responsibility,” Atka responded resolutely.
“Well, you won’t have to go it alone. All of your squadmates are there to back you up.” Jake sighed, rubbing the back of his neck. “I… wish there was more I could do for you out on the battlefield, but I’m here to help you however I can from here.”
“Not everyone needs to fight. You being here to cheer me on is enough for me,” Atka said gently.
“I’m glad,” Jake said, but continued to rub his neck. “Atka, um… can I… are you happy? With… with me, I mean.”
“Why wouldn’t I be?” Atka replied simply.
The bluntness of the response seemed to make Jake relax a bit, but not by much. “I… I haven’t been completely honest with you, Atka. I mean, I… I haven’t tried to lie to you but…” He shook his head. “Maybe it was something of a lie after all.”
“You can talk about whatever it is if you want. I’m not going to get mad at you or anything.”
Jake sighed. “I… I’m not very strong, Atka. And I’m not very confident. I’m probably even less confident than you think. I… I thought if I pretended to be more confident, you wouldn’t just pass me off as some coward not worth your time. I hope if I could act more confident, it would become true. And I guess it has happened, to a degree. But I’m… scared. I’m afraid I am wasting your time. That any second, you’ll realize the mistake you made. And I’m not going to keep anything from you anymore. But, I… even if it was for the best, I can’t hide how I feel about you. I… love you, Atka. Like… love… love…”
“Jake, I don’t need the most courageous person in the world… that’s not what I was looking for. I was looking for someone that I could reach a mutual understanding with, someone who was honest and kind… and you’re all those things.” Atka leaned down to kiss him gently. “You won’t be able to convince me otherwise.”
Jake chuckled, his face reddening a bit as he let out a sigh of relief. “Thanks… I… that makes me feel better. I was just afraid… well, I’m here for you, through thick and thin. As long as you want me, nobody could pull me away from you. This… this Phobos couldn’t use his telekinetic binding things to pull me from you.” He looked away, trying to hide the embarrassment from his own corniness.
A small smile creased Atka’s lips. “Feel better now?”
“I do.” Jake smiled up at her. “How do you keep doing that?”
“Do what?” Atka asked with a bit of confusion.
“Everytime I set out to make you feel better, you always end up coming to my emotional rescue instead.” Jake placed his hands behind his head, closing his eyes and leaning back a bit. “Must be a natural talent. If this soldier thing doesn’t work out, you’d make an excellent therapist.”
Atka chuckled. “Perhaps, though I’d have to get formal training to get taken seriously in that regard.”
“I know you could if you tried.” Jake opened his eyes. “So, um… I have some free time. If you do to… which I guess, if you’re here… wanna do something?”
“Of course,” Atka replied confidently. “What did you have in mind?”
Jake eyes darted back and forth, and he shook his head. Get your head out of the gutter. “I-I don’t know, just… sharing a few drinks. Of… or exercising together. Or a… simulation, or… s-something.”
Atka shrugged. “Whatever you would find the most enjoyable. I have no objections to any of that.”
Jake smiled. “Well… I doubt that. I’m pretty sure I could think of something you'd object to.”
Atka raised an eyebrow mischievously. “Try me.”
Jake’s eyes wandered a bit. “Well… we could go back to your room and… I don’t know, fool around?”
The Inuit woman chuckled. “Is that something you really want to do?”
Jake’s smile wavered a bit. Wait… she… “Um… I-I mean, I… i-if you… if you wanted to, I… I’m game…”
“I did figure out that I ought to ‘live’ more, to not be so uptight,” Atka responded, her expression softening. “I… wouldn’t mind doing something like that, though I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t nervous.”
Jake just stared at Atka for a few moments, his chair slowly leaning back until it, and he, fell to the floor. Atka stepped forward to check on him, but he quickly jumped to his feet. “W-well, I… w-w-we could… t-try and… stop whenever you start to get uncomfortable…”
Atka tilted her head to the side slightly. “Are you going to be alright?”
Jake chuckled. “I… I-I’ve never felt better, to be perfectly honest.”
With a shrug and a smile, Atka mused,” I… hope Ayame isn’t around right now…otherwise I’m not sure where we could go.”
Jake nodded, and nervously followed Atka back to her room. It was vacant, Ayame likely either having a check-up, in engineering with Sunny, or exercising against doctor’s orders. As he closed the door behind them, the young guard couldn’t help but wonder if someone was playing a trick on him, but he didn’t see Atka being that cruel.
X-COM Headquarters, Somewhere in Siberia
Primary Rec-room
Oct. 30th, 1600 Hours
“Hmmmm…” Jake tapped his pencil against his lip, looking at the scorched Ethereal mask with some disappointment. With part of it blown off, it was hard to translate the section that made up Ira’s exact title, or rank, or whatever the Ethereals called it. Sighing in defeat, he decided he’d just see if Emily could find out, and moved on to the mask of Ira’s lacky, this one much less fancy, and all the more easier to work on. “Should have worked on this one first,” he mumbled to himself, taking a drink from a glass of some fruity, fake-alcoholic drink the bartender had recommended to him.
“Nice collection you have there,” a familiar voice said from behind Jake.
Jake jumped a bit. “Atka!” He laughed nervously. “Sorry, I… I guess working on these masks, having them stare at me like this… kinda makes me jumpy.”
Atka shrugged. “Probably a rational response to them. Though you have to find it intriguing enough to study anyway, right?”
Jake nodded. “Yeah. I read somewhere that one way to understand a group of people is to study their language. Tells you how they think, what they find important, how simple or complex they find certain things.” He scrunched his nose a bit. “Probably… sounds boring, huh?”
Atka shook her head. “I can appreciate that. Brought you something, by the way.” Atka pulled an intricate carving out of a small bag, the falcon atop the sea turtle shell, and offered it to Jake.
Jake carefully took it, turning the masks towards the wall as though he didn’t want them to see it. “This is… this is really cool. Where did you get… d-did you make this?”
The Inuit woman smiled. “The latter is correct. Made one of these ‘guardian spirits’ for Ayame too, though I haven’t shown her yet.”
“Wow, I… wow…” Jake just stared at the carving for a moment, taking it in. “I don’t know what to say. No one has ever given me something like this. I mean… like, not even close. I… this is so…”
“Don’t sweat it. It’s just something I do for friends… though I will admit I put a lot of effort into these two,” Atka said dismissively.
“Yeah, I can see that.” Jake smiled at her. “Thank you. Really, I just… wish I had something to give you.”
“Well, I wouldn’t mind taking a look at those masks close up. The Ethereals are interesting, even if pretty much everything about their culture is out of wack,” the colonel stated.
“Of course.” Jake carefully put the carving to the side, and pushed the masks forward. “These are from the two Ethereals in Brazil. And I have others in my room. You can see them any time you wish. I was asked to translate them, so I have all of them except the one Dr. Anderson has.”
Atka looked over the masks with curiosity, noting the difference in design and ornamentation. “I can’t remember it exactly, but I know for certain that ‘Phobos’ had a mask far beyond these in terms of design.”
“Who, uh…” Jake leaned forward a bit. “Who’s Phobos?”
“Right, I just went over that in my head so far.” Atka chuckled. “I figured naming the leader of the Ethereals after the personification of fear was an apt description. He’s the one I met in my dream.”
“Really? How much of his mask do you remember?” Jake asked, hoping she didn’t take his question as a dismissal of how serious the situation had been. “Any symbols you could recreate for me would be useful.”
Atka closed her eyes for a moment. “I can try to sketch you something…” Borrowing Jake’s pencil, she started to draw a rough sketch of the mask, the memory unusually keen due to the unique circumstances of that fateful meeting.
Jake looked over the various symbols, rubbing his chin. “Wow, these… if you’re remembering these right, he sure is a complicated… this looks like a name… no, this is his name, I think. Which means his title is above… his name. Interesting. These are going to take me a while, but I’m… pretty sure I can translate them. Your ability to remember them sure helps.”
“Glad I could help, in any case,” Atka replied, finally laying the pencil to rest. “Wonder if this will give us any clues to his powers… I know he has a lot of it, but the only thing he used were those ‘binding’ threads that were probably just powerful telekinesis.”
Jake frowned, looking into Atka’s eyes. “I, um… I’m sure you’re probably getting tired of people asking you this by now, but are you okay? I know I wouldn’t be after an encounter like that. I know you’re stronger than me, but still.”
“I appreciate the concern, but yeah, I’m okay. I was a little shaken up… but even if I have to face Phobos, that’s something I have to do. I won’t run from that responsibility,” Atka responded resolutely.
“Well, you won’t have to go it alone. All of your squadmates are there to back you up.” Jake sighed, rubbing the back of his neck. “I… wish there was more I could do for you out on the battlefield, but I’m here to help you however I can from here.”
“Not everyone needs to fight. You being here to cheer me on is enough for me,” Atka said gently.
“I’m glad,” Jake said, but continued to rub his neck. “Atka, um… can I… are you happy? With… with me, I mean.”
“Why wouldn’t I be?” Atka replied simply.
The bluntness of the response seemed to make Jake relax a bit, but not by much. “I… I haven’t been completely honest with you, Atka. I mean, I… I haven’t tried to lie to you but…” He shook his head. “Maybe it was something of a lie after all.”
“You can talk about whatever it is if you want. I’m not going to get mad at you or anything.”
Jake sighed. “I… I’m not very strong, Atka. And I’m not very confident. I’m probably even less confident than you think. I… I thought if I pretended to be more confident, you wouldn’t just pass me off as some coward not worth your time. I hope if I could act more confident, it would become true. And I guess it has happened, to a degree. But I’m… scared. I’m afraid I am wasting your time. That any second, you’ll realize the mistake you made. And I’m not going to keep anything from you anymore. But, I… even if it was for the best, I can’t hide how I feel about you. I… love you, Atka. Like… love… love…”
“Jake, I don’t need the most courageous person in the world… that’s not what I was looking for. I was looking for someone that I could reach a mutual understanding with, someone who was honest and kind… and you’re all those things.” Atka leaned down to kiss him gently. “You won’t be able to convince me otherwise.”
Jake chuckled, his face reddening a bit as he let out a sigh of relief. “Thanks… I… that makes me feel better. I was just afraid… well, I’m here for you, through thick and thin. As long as you want me, nobody could pull me away from you. This… this Phobos couldn’t use his telekinetic binding things to pull me from you.” He looked away, trying to hide the embarrassment from his own corniness.
A small smile creased Atka’s lips. “Feel better now?”
“I do.” Jake smiled up at her. “How do you keep doing that?”
“Do what?” Atka asked with a bit of confusion.
“Everytime I set out to make you feel better, you always end up coming to my emotional rescue instead.” Jake placed his hands behind his head, closing his eyes and leaning back a bit. “Must be a natural talent. If this soldier thing doesn’t work out, you’d make an excellent therapist.”
Atka chuckled. “Perhaps, though I’d have to get formal training to get taken seriously in that regard.”
“I know you could if you tried.” Jake opened his eyes. “So, um… I have some free time. If you do to… which I guess, if you’re here… wanna do something?”
“Of course,” Atka replied confidently. “What did you have in mind?”
Jake eyes darted back and forth, and he shook his head. Get your head out of the gutter. “I-I don’t know, just… sharing a few drinks. Of… or exercising together. Or a… simulation, or… s-something.”
Atka shrugged. “Whatever you would find the most enjoyable. I have no objections to any of that.”
Jake smiled. “Well… I doubt that. I’m pretty sure I could think of something you'd object to.”
Atka raised an eyebrow mischievously. “Try me.”
Jake’s eyes wandered a bit. “Well… we could go back to your room and… I don’t know, fool around?”
The Inuit woman chuckled. “Is that something you really want to do?”
Jake’s smile wavered a bit. Wait… she… “Um… I-I mean, I… i-if you… if you wanted to, I… I’m game…”
“I did figure out that I ought to ‘live’ more, to not be so uptight,” Atka responded, her expression softening. “I… wouldn’t mind doing something like that, though I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t nervous.”
Jake just stared at Atka for a few moments, his chair slowly leaning back until it, and he, fell to the floor. Atka stepped forward to check on him, but he quickly jumped to his feet. “W-well, I… w-w-we could… t-try and… stop whenever you start to get uncomfortable…”
Atka tilted her head to the side slightly. “Are you going to be alright?”
Jake chuckled. “I… I-I’ve never felt better, to be perfectly honest.”
With a shrug and a smile, Atka mused,” I… hope Ayame isn’t around right now…otherwise I’m not sure where we could go.”
Jake nodded, and nervously followed Atka back to her room. It was vacant, Ayame likely either having a check-up, in engineering with Sunny, or exercising against doctor’s orders. As he closed the door behind them, the young guard couldn’t help but wonder if someone was playing a trick on him, but he didn’t see Atka being that cruel.