Omens of Disillusion and Power: Part One
Late night at the Matterhorn siege meant one of two things for the soldiers under XCOM’s banner, that either you were coming back from a daily operation or you were going out for one. The hour was currently late and in the night, the glow of fires and smoke could still be seen out in the distance. A partially lit moon hung overhead as the clouds rolled along slowly, the air crisp and cold though to Leon, it felt good on his skin.
He currently stood outside one of the tents that were perched up near the Avenger, wearing nothing more than cargo pants and a plain t-shirt that held tight against his torso. Attached to his left forearm was Pacem’s bracer, and attached with it being Bellum. As of yet he had been reserved on using the two until the proper time was reached, and there certainly had been times he was tempted to use them. Holding his wrist tightly, he let out a soft yawn and turned back to his tent in order to have some time to rest before the morning came.
***
In the mild cold of the old Ohio city’s downtown district, the small group rummaging through an old ADVENT truck were talking amongst one another, the banter lighthearted as the tried picking the old bones clean. It was an armored truck that was the target of a raid a couple of months previous but when the camp needed raw supplies they usually ran by old sites like the one they were at. Next to the truck was a large skyscraper that looked to have been built by the hands of a master architect, having been something of a hotel in the past. It laid untouched by the ruin around them.
“Come on Leon… how much longer we have to stay out here? It is barely noon and it is almost already on the verge of snowing.” Jaren complained, putting one hand on his hip as he used his arm to lean against the edge of the truck.
Leon raised an eyebrow as he slowly straightened, rubbing the back of his neck. “Complaints out of you? I am going to need to pay Devon extra rations now. I thought you would have gone on longer. We’ve only been out an hour.”
Jaren twisted his mouth and took in a sharp breath quickly, turning up his nose as he got back to work. “I don’t complain that much.”
“Yeah you do Jaren. Don’t try and deny it.” Evie said from behind them, wagging a finger at the teen. She looked different. Paler than usual. Leon assumed it was from the cold.
“Oh come on, I don’t need this from both of you. You are at least supposed to be on my side Evie!” Jaren bickered, turning his annoyed gaze at the brunette who kept her hair tied back and over her shoulder. Her freckled face frowned and her back straightened slightly, making her seem taller than she actually was.
“I will be on whosever side I see fit at a time Jaren. As a man you should accept and respect that.” She responded to his calling out of her as if addressing a child.
Jaren’s mouth held agape at her and her suddenly shift in loyalty, a sight which caused the girl’s look to turn smug. Leon couldn’t help but laugh, causing two pairs of eyes to turn at him simultaneously, turn back to one another, and laugh in turn. “Come on. I think we got enough scrap to keep Izzy happy for a while.”
“Yes. ‘Bout time.” Jaren noted as he grabbed his bag and his rifle, slinging both over a respective shoulder.
As he and Evie walked with one another, Leon couldn’t help but frown. Things felt weird for him. He felt a strange sense of deja vu, feeling like he had been in this moment before. Leon stopped mid pace and stood as he watched Jaren and Evie walk on talking to one another paying him no mind. The young soldier looked up to the sky as light flutters of snow began to come down, and he held out his hand. Wasn’t he feeling hot before now?
He looked back to where Jaren and Evie were supposed to be but they were gone. In their place, a large tidal wave of white came towards him, the Canadian holding up his arms as a strong wind whipped all around him, the snow leaving streaks of frost along his jacket. There was howling all around him, the strong gust sounding as if a pack of wolves were all howling at the same time. Leon looked back to the large hotel and slowly turned, walking with the blizzard as the cold took hold of his bones, the pain unbearable to a point. He pushed his way through the revolving door and fell, breathing heavily as warmth slowly returned to him.
He looked up to see the lobby empty of everything, people, furniture, yet the lights were on and a glance back showed the outside nothing but a pitch black. Pushing himself to his feet, Leon slowly brushed the already melting frost from his person as he walked forward looking around in confusion. He noticed the blinking light of the elevator across the lobby and he moved towards it, the door sliding open automatically.
Once inside, there was only one button to push with the floor number scratched out. The doors closed as he hesitated, though Leon saw only one path forward. He pressed the button and the elevator slowly began to ascend. It was a relatively smooth ride, Leon waiting patiently as the doors opened and he stepped out. Leon was older now, hair no longer a mess of longish hair but now shaved down. A short beard was covering his jaw and chin, and he was dressed not much different than before. He wore a black army jacket over a white shirt, wearing with them black cargo jeans as well.
He had come out onto a rail platform, the elevator closing behind him. There was a crowd of people all around, but there were not civilians awaiting the train, it was all fully armed and armored ADVENT troops. Yet none of them so much as paid him any mind, guns resting across their torsos as they mingled about. After a few moments of bewilderment, Leon soon paid them little mind as he stepped to the platform’s edge. A bullet train came to a stop before them and the doors slid open, the soldier stepping into a train car filled with even more troopers.
Leon stood standing against the door, leaning back against it as he stared out the windows of the one across from him, taking note of the giant mega-cityscape around him, a massive tower standing in the middle of it all. Leon felt goosebumps roll across his body, as he took in the sight, not noticing that behind him a visage of Ember was in the reflection of the window mirroring his movements until her slowly turned around to look at the window she had been reflected in and only saw himself there.
The train entered into a tunnel and all grew dark, the lights of the train not coming on. When they did, Leon stood in the middle of a large gym, back to his normal self. Before him was a sight he had not seen before. Across the far end of the gym, a punching bag lay broken off the chain, lying beneath where it used to be was a figure.
Leon ran forward and dropped to a knee, turning the person over and seeing the face of Yakone, not Ember. Her eyes were closed and her mouth hung open slightly, her body already pale showing that she had been taken into death’s embrace already. The man trembled at the sight, tears slowly rolling down his cheeks as he brought the corpse close to him and embraced his fallen love tightly. Droplets fell on him, and then soon there was a downpour coming from nowhere.
When he pulled back, his eyes widened in horror. They stood in the middle of a broken down church, no one around them as evidence of battle was all around. He was dressed in full body armor which was marked with several indicators he had taken bad damage, and mud caked his cheeks as he stared down at the woman he had cradled, dressed in her specialized ADVENT armor. In his hand was an orange spear, the weapon lanced cleanly through her chest until it had broken through her body and was stuck in the ground.
Blood caked her lips and her eyes were closed, Leon’s heart twisting at the sight. His eyes closed as he stood, he pulled the weapon from her chest. He opened his eyes to stare at the woman he had killed, swaying slightly from exhaustion. “Why?” He asked it, his voice straining to speak. “Why did you do this to us?”
Placing the lance in the ground to support himself, Leon breathed heavily, placing a hand against his chest. “I’ve done all I can for you.” His head hung as he breathing quickened and he gulped down what little saliva he could produce. “But it won’t ever be enough. It will never be enough. Be your own person Verrater, or Ipiktok, or whoever you are in that fucked up head of yours. I’m done wasting my worry on something I can’t seem to fix.”
The sad part was, deep down those words rang more true than any he had ever spoken. Night after night of worry, day after day of kicking himself for not being good enough to had made a difference in her life was all gone now. He was free of his burden. Trying to chase after Ember was over, and trying to appease Yakone was at an end. Here, in this church, he was burying his indecisiveness and worry. Here, he was burying his girlfriend.
Leon closed his eyes once more, and soon nothing came to him at all.
Late night at the Matterhorn siege meant one of two things for the soldiers under XCOM’s banner, that either you were coming back from a daily operation or you were going out for one. The hour was currently late and in the night, the glow of fires and smoke could still be seen out in the distance. A partially lit moon hung overhead as the clouds rolled along slowly, the air crisp and cold though to Leon, it felt good on his skin.
He currently stood outside one of the tents that were perched up near the Avenger, wearing nothing more than cargo pants and a plain t-shirt that held tight against his torso. Attached to his left forearm was Pacem’s bracer, and attached with it being Bellum. As of yet he had been reserved on using the two until the proper time was reached, and there certainly had been times he was tempted to use them. Holding his wrist tightly, he let out a soft yawn and turned back to his tent in order to have some time to rest before the morning came.
***
In the mild cold of the old Ohio city’s downtown district, the small group rummaging through an old ADVENT truck were talking amongst one another, the banter lighthearted as the tried picking the old bones clean. It was an armored truck that was the target of a raid a couple of months previous but when the camp needed raw supplies they usually ran by old sites like the one they were at. Next to the truck was a large skyscraper that looked to have been built by the hands of a master architect, having been something of a hotel in the past. It laid untouched by the ruin around them.
“Come on Leon… how much longer we have to stay out here? It is barely noon and it is almost already on the verge of snowing.” Jaren complained, putting one hand on his hip as he used his arm to lean against the edge of the truck.
Leon raised an eyebrow as he slowly straightened, rubbing the back of his neck. “Complaints out of you? I am going to need to pay Devon extra rations now. I thought you would have gone on longer. We’ve only been out an hour.”
Jaren twisted his mouth and took in a sharp breath quickly, turning up his nose as he got back to work. “I don’t complain that much.”
“Yeah you do Jaren. Don’t try and deny it.” Evie said from behind them, wagging a finger at the teen. She looked different. Paler than usual. Leon assumed it was from the cold.
“Oh come on, I don’t need this from both of you. You are at least supposed to be on my side Evie!” Jaren bickered, turning his annoyed gaze at the brunette who kept her hair tied back and over her shoulder. Her freckled face frowned and her back straightened slightly, making her seem taller than she actually was.
“I will be on whosever side I see fit at a time Jaren. As a man you should accept and respect that.” She responded to his calling out of her as if addressing a child.
Jaren’s mouth held agape at her and her suddenly shift in loyalty, a sight which caused the girl’s look to turn smug. Leon couldn’t help but laugh, causing two pairs of eyes to turn at him simultaneously, turn back to one another, and laugh in turn. “Come on. I think we got enough scrap to keep Izzy happy for a while.”
“Yes. ‘Bout time.” Jaren noted as he grabbed his bag and his rifle, slinging both over a respective shoulder.
As he and Evie walked with one another, Leon couldn’t help but frown. Things felt weird for him. He felt a strange sense of deja vu, feeling like he had been in this moment before. Leon stopped mid pace and stood as he watched Jaren and Evie walk on talking to one another paying him no mind. The young soldier looked up to the sky as light flutters of snow began to come down, and he held out his hand. Wasn’t he feeling hot before now?
He looked back to where Jaren and Evie were supposed to be but they were gone. In their place, a large tidal wave of white came towards him, the Canadian holding up his arms as a strong wind whipped all around him, the snow leaving streaks of frost along his jacket. There was howling all around him, the strong gust sounding as if a pack of wolves were all howling at the same time. Leon looked back to the large hotel and slowly turned, walking with the blizzard as the cold took hold of his bones, the pain unbearable to a point. He pushed his way through the revolving door and fell, breathing heavily as warmth slowly returned to him.
He looked up to see the lobby empty of everything, people, furniture, yet the lights were on and a glance back showed the outside nothing but a pitch black. Pushing himself to his feet, Leon slowly brushed the already melting frost from his person as he walked forward looking around in confusion. He noticed the blinking light of the elevator across the lobby and he moved towards it, the door sliding open automatically.
Once inside, there was only one button to push with the floor number scratched out. The doors closed as he hesitated, though Leon saw only one path forward. He pressed the button and the elevator slowly began to ascend. It was a relatively smooth ride, Leon waiting patiently as the doors opened and he stepped out. Leon was older now, hair no longer a mess of longish hair but now shaved down. A short beard was covering his jaw and chin, and he was dressed not much different than before. He wore a black army jacket over a white shirt, wearing with them black cargo jeans as well.
He had come out onto a rail platform, the elevator closing behind him. There was a crowd of people all around, but there were not civilians awaiting the train, it was all fully armed and armored ADVENT troops. Yet none of them so much as paid him any mind, guns resting across their torsos as they mingled about. After a few moments of bewilderment, Leon soon paid them little mind as he stepped to the platform’s edge. A bullet train came to a stop before them and the doors slid open, the soldier stepping into a train car filled with even more troopers.
Leon stood standing against the door, leaning back against it as he stared out the windows of the one across from him, taking note of the giant mega-cityscape around him, a massive tower standing in the middle of it all. Leon felt goosebumps roll across his body, as he took in the sight, not noticing that behind him a visage of Ember was in the reflection of the window mirroring his movements until her slowly turned around to look at the window she had been reflected in and only saw himself there.
The train entered into a tunnel and all grew dark, the lights of the train not coming on. When they did, Leon stood in the middle of a large gym, back to his normal self. Before him was a sight he had not seen before. Across the far end of the gym, a punching bag lay broken off the chain, lying beneath where it used to be was a figure.
Leon ran forward and dropped to a knee, turning the person over and seeing the face of Yakone, not Ember. Her eyes were closed and her mouth hung open slightly, her body already pale showing that she had been taken into death’s embrace already. The man trembled at the sight, tears slowly rolling down his cheeks as he brought the corpse close to him and embraced his fallen love tightly. Droplets fell on him, and then soon there was a downpour coming from nowhere.
When he pulled back, his eyes widened in horror. They stood in the middle of a broken down church, no one around them as evidence of battle was all around. He was dressed in full body armor which was marked with several indicators he had taken bad damage, and mud caked his cheeks as he stared down at the woman he had cradled, dressed in her specialized ADVENT armor. In his hand was an orange spear, the weapon lanced cleanly through her chest until it had broken through her body and was stuck in the ground.
Blood caked her lips and her eyes were closed, Leon’s heart twisting at the sight. His eyes closed as he stood, he pulled the weapon from her chest. He opened his eyes to stare at the woman he had killed, swaying slightly from exhaustion. “Why?” He asked it, his voice straining to speak. “Why did you do this to us?”
Placing the lance in the ground to support himself, Leon breathed heavily, placing a hand against his chest. “I’ve done all I can for you.” His head hung as he breathing quickened and he gulped down what little saliva he could produce. “But it won’t ever be enough. It will never be enough. Be your own person Verrater, or Ipiktok, or whoever you are in that fucked up head of yours. I’m done wasting my worry on something I can’t seem to fix.”
The sad part was, deep down those words rang more true than any he had ever spoken. Night after night of worry, day after day of kicking himself for not being good enough to had made a difference in her life was all gone now. He was free of his burden. Trying to chase after Ember was over, and trying to appease Yakone was at an end. Here, in this church, he was burying his indecisiveness and worry. Here, he was burying his girlfriend.
Leon closed his eyes once more, and soon nothing came to him at all.