ZombieSplitter53 and DarkGemini24601: “Restless Night, Part 1”
Late at night, on-board the Avenger, Alexis slowly wandered the halls in the hopes of finding a means to sleep. With the battle raging outside, nonstop from morning to night, Alexis couldn’t help feel the weight of XCOM’s struggle. It now felt more like a full-blown war then a resistance, and who could say how things would escalate after this. That is, assuming XCOM won. She sighed, not wanting to let such dark thoughts in. It was enough that there were two people out there that she cared about that would likely show up to try and kill her and her friends. She had prepared for this, but no matter how much she did, she doubted she would ever be truly ready for it.
With another sigh, one that seemed to be her millionth in the past year, she turned into the gym. Perhaps a quick run on the treadmill would tire her out enough to get some sleep. When she arrived, she found that she was not the only one who couldn’t drift off into dreamland. Standing on the right end of the room, across from the treadmills on a padded mat was the Commander. Atka was in the midst of something akin to shadowboxing, sweat beading off her forehead as she thrust her fists forward. Most of the lights in the room were currently off, but as Alexis’s eyes adjusted she recognized the signature Reflection weapons that the Inuit woman and her sister shared zipping ethereally through the air, mimicking the motions of Atka’s strikes.
Alexis watched her for a while, more interested in her Commander’s workout then her own for now. After a bit, she approached, giving Atka a tired smile. “Hey,” she said simply.
The Commander glanced to the side with her dark blue eyes. Registering that it was Alexis, she quickly retracted the icy helixes - recalling vividly that the Aerotrooper had bad memories of them. “Hello, Alexis,” she spoke warily - cautious about saying the wrong thing and upsetting her daughter’s friend. “Can’t sleep?”
“Nope. Not a wink.” If Alexis was put off at all, she didn’t show it. She sat on a bench and frowned. “I’m worried. Worried about Luke. Worried about my teammates. Worried about… you know who…”
“No sense in beating around the bush about it,” Atka responded with a surprising tranquility. “I’m worried about Yakone too. They might just be Advent troops - traitors or not - but that warped version of her was out there, cutting down Shen’lustus’s forces and setting up the conflict we find ourselves in. I have a feeling it’s only going to get worse… and while we have a shot at saving her, I can only imagine the guilt she’ll feel should she be brought to her senses.”
Alexis cringed a bit. “I didn’t… really think about that. Everyone she kills. All her friends that she hurts. And… god forbid she kills a teammate. Even if we get her back, it could end up breaking her.”
Atka sighed. “It’ll be rough… it’s just a question of how rough.” The Inuit woman picked up a towel, wiping off some of the sweat on her forehead. “That said… she’s my daughter. If the fact that I’m not catatonically insane after all the shit I’ve been through is any evidence, she’ll pull herself together. We just need to be there for her.”
Alex bit her lip. “Maybe, but… w-what about Nouja? She’s been at this for years. How many people has she hurt? Killed? Tortured? If I was in her place, I don’t know if I could live with those memories. I hope she doesn’t end up keeping them when we save her…”
“That’s the question that’s been plaguing me and keeping me up,” Atka responded, her expression tightening. “The memory unit we have could strip her of all those negative memories. As far as the argument that it’d be unethical… to hell with that, I don’t want my little sister to suffer,” Atka sharply dismissed the prospect. “That said, though… I don’t know what I would tell her. She’d still have all that alien DNA that they worked into her… and there’d be a decade-sized gap in her memory. The confusion might be equally as damning as the guilt.” Atka clenched her fists in frustration. “I almost wonder if it had been better if…” she trailed off, unwilling to directly complete her sentence. “It would have made things simpler, anyway.”
“Yeah… maybe…” Alexis quickly shook her head. “But we should worry about what is, not what could be. It will be hard. Crushing even. But… I’m sure you can do it. You have that way with people.” She gave an encouraging smile, but it quickly faded. “I… I’m actually worried about how other people might react to Nouja. E… especially…”
The Commander raised an eyebrow. “What are you getting at?”
“It’s… Morrigan O’Brien. She kinda has a grudge against Nouja… well, Blukersey. She personally tortured her more than once, and Morrigan has it more in for her because she was such a high standing official that left her in there. Morrigan said she… begged, and Blukersey just didn’t care. She just justified everything she did.”
Atka’s features had grown quite pallid from the revelation, though she wasn’t entirely speechless. “That’s… I can understand why she’d hold a grudge, but we know better than that! The Eth.. the Declensions programmed her to serve them without question! She never had a choice in the matter.”
Alexis shoulders slumped, and she stared at the floor. “It’s my fault. I… I haven’t told her the truth. I’ve tried, but every time I chicken out. I’m too afraid that she won’t care.”
The Commander let out a sigh, and walked closer to Alexis, placing her hand on the Aerotrooper’s shoulder. “It’s alright. Can’t be helped. That’s not your battle to fight, anyway. Let me take care of that now that I know… better to deal with it now than later, when we have Nouja back.”
Alexis nodded. “Thank you. I can’t imagine what-” She paused, the noise of something shuffling in the doorway drawing her eyes.
Atka’s blue orbs darted to the doorway as well. “Don’t tell me…” she muttered.
“Do you mind… if I talk with the Commander alone?” came Morrigan familiar voice from the dark. Alexis hesitated, but soon stood up and headed towards the back of the room. Morrigan stepped into the room, a blank expression on her face. “I… I saw Alex wandering the halls. Thought I’d join her in here for a run. I… eavesdropping isn’t exactly something one should do to friends, but I’m afraid that is what happened…”
“How much did you hear?” Atka questioned, exhaling softly and sustaining a neutral expression for now.
“Just the… the end part. About your sister and… well, I guess it was technically all about your sister, huh?” Morrigan took a seat, avoiding eye contact.
“You may speak freely, O’Brien. Now is not the time to mince words,” Atka stated flatly.
Morrigan squeezed her fists tightly. “I… I hate her, you know? Blukersey, I mean. She… I know… it wasn’t all her. But the way she… looked down on me. The way she saw me suffering and… a-a-and insisted it was my fault! I can still remember how numb my fingers were when I tried to reach out to her… Commander, I… I don’t know if I can… see that woman as anything but a monster…”
Late at night, on-board the Avenger, Alexis slowly wandered the halls in the hopes of finding a means to sleep. With the battle raging outside, nonstop from morning to night, Alexis couldn’t help feel the weight of XCOM’s struggle. It now felt more like a full-blown war then a resistance, and who could say how things would escalate after this. That is, assuming XCOM won. She sighed, not wanting to let such dark thoughts in. It was enough that there were two people out there that she cared about that would likely show up to try and kill her and her friends. She had prepared for this, but no matter how much she did, she doubted she would ever be truly ready for it.
With another sigh, one that seemed to be her millionth in the past year, she turned into the gym. Perhaps a quick run on the treadmill would tire her out enough to get some sleep. When she arrived, she found that she was not the only one who couldn’t drift off into dreamland. Standing on the right end of the room, across from the treadmills on a padded mat was the Commander. Atka was in the midst of something akin to shadowboxing, sweat beading off her forehead as she thrust her fists forward. Most of the lights in the room were currently off, but as Alexis’s eyes adjusted she recognized the signature Reflection weapons that the Inuit woman and her sister shared zipping ethereally through the air, mimicking the motions of Atka’s strikes.
Alexis watched her for a while, more interested in her Commander’s workout then her own for now. After a bit, she approached, giving Atka a tired smile. “Hey,” she said simply.
The Commander glanced to the side with her dark blue eyes. Registering that it was Alexis, she quickly retracted the icy helixes - recalling vividly that the Aerotrooper had bad memories of them. “Hello, Alexis,” she spoke warily - cautious about saying the wrong thing and upsetting her daughter’s friend. “Can’t sleep?”
“Nope. Not a wink.” If Alexis was put off at all, she didn’t show it. She sat on a bench and frowned. “I’m worried. Worried about Luke. Worried about my teammates. Worried about… you know who…”
“No sense in beating around the bush about it,” Atka responded with a surprising tranquility. “I’m worried about Yakone too. They might just be Advent troops - traitors or not - but that warped version of her was out there, cutting down Shen’lustus’s forces and setting up the conflict we find ourselves in. I have a feeling it’s only going to get worse… and while we have a shot at saving her, I can only imagine the guilt she’ll feel should she be brought to her senses.”
Alexis cringed a bit. “I didn’t… really think about that. Everyone she kills. All her friends that she hurts. And… god forbid she kills a teammate. Even if we get her back, it could end up breaking her.”
Atka sighed. “It’ll be rough… it’s just a question of how rough.” The Inuit woman picked up a towel, wiping off some of the sweat on her forehead. “That said… she’s my daughter. If the fact that I’m not catatonically insane after all the shit I’ve been through is any evidence, she’ll pull herself together. We just need to be there for her.”
Alex bit her lip. “Maybe, but… w-what about Nouja? She’s been at this for years. How many people has she hurt? Killed? Tortured? If I was in her place, I don’t know if I could live with those memories. I hope she doesn’t end up keeping them when we save her…”
“That’s the question that’s been plaguing me and keeping me up,” Atka responded, her expression tightening. “The memory unit we have could strip her of all those negative memories. As far as the argument that it’d be unethical… to hell with that, I don’t want my little sister to suffer,” Atka sharply dismissed the prospect. “That said, though… I don’t know what I would tell her. She’d still have all that alien DNA that they worked into her… and there’d be a decade-sized gap in her memory. The confusion might be equally as damning as the guilt.” Atka clenched her fists in frustration. “I almost wonder if it had been better if…” she trailed off, unwilling to directly complete her sentence. “It would have made things simpler, anyway.”
“Yeah… maybe…” Alexis quickly shook her head. “But we should worry about what is, not what could be. It will be hard. Crushing even. But… I’m sure you can do it. You have that way with people.” She gave an encouraging smile, but it quickly faded. “I… I’m actually worried about how other people might react to Nouja. E… especially…”
The Commander raised an eyebrow. “What are you getting at?”
“It’s… Morrigan O’Brien. She kinda has a grudge against Nouja… well, Blukersey. She personally tortured her more than once, and Morrigan has it more in for her because she was such a high standing official that left her in there. Morrigan said she… begged, and Blukersey just didn’t care. She just justified everything she did.”
Atka’s features had grown quite pallid from the revelation, though she wasn’t entirely speechless. “That’s… I can understand why she’d hold a grudge, but we know better than that! The Eth.. the Declensions programmed her to serve them without question! She never had a choice in the matter.”
Alexis shoulders slumped, and she stared at the floor. “It’s my fault. I… I haven’t told her the truth. I’ve tried, but every time I chicken out. I’m too afraid that she won’t care.”
The Commander let out a sigh, and walked closer to Alexis, placing her hand on the Aerotrooper’s shoulder. “It’s alright. Can’t be helped. That’s not your battle to fight, anyway. Let me take care of that now that I know… better to deal with it now than later, when we have Nouja back.”
Alexis nodded. “Thank you. I can’t imagine what-” She paused, the noise of something shuffling in the doorway drawing her eyes.
Atka’s blue orbs darted to the doorway as well. “Don’t tell me…” she muttered.
“Do you mind… if I talk with the Commander alone?” came Morrigan familiar voice from the dark. Alexis hesitated, but soon stood up and headed towards the back of the room. Morrigan stepped into the room, a blank expression on her face. “I… I saw Alex wandering the halls. Thought I’d join her in here for a run. I… eavesdropping isn’t exactly something one should do to friends, but I’m afraid that is what happened…”
“How much did you hear?” Atka questioned, exhaling softly and sustaining a neutral expression for now.
“Just the… the end part. About your sister and… well, I guess it was technically all about your sister, huh?” Morrigan took a seat, avoiding eye contact.
“You may speak freely, O’Brien. Now is not the time to mince words,” Atka stated flatly.
Morrigan squeezed her fists tightly. “I… I hate her, you know? Blukersey, I mean. She… I know… it wasn’t all her. But the way she… looked down on me. The way she saw me suffering and… a-a-and insisted it was my fault! I can still remember how numb my fingers were when I tried to reach out to her… Commander, I… I don’t know if I can… see that woman as anything but a monster…”