Alright, a little transparency is necessary. Let me dispel the fear and anxiety that such a preface might create, I just want to speak earnestly among friends. This has been on my mind for weeks and very little has encouraged me on this front. I've lost the ability to plan for this story or invest my time towards it. I have other projects that I'm working on that take priority, but that's always been the case. The question of whether or not I was going to do this story always comes down to "will I want to make time for it". And right now, I haven't had the will.
I haven't had the will because - in my mind at least, I realize this may be different for other people - I've been waiting on a main plot to form. And I know that it'll be awhile yet before there's a solid plan, because I know things. I know that Zombie has been under an immense amount of pressure from work, anxiety, and starting this story before its truly ready. And I sympathize greatly with him. He's been working so damn hard to make this enjoyable, and in terms of the actual content we've produced? He's succeeded. But its simply impossible at the moment for him to have a central plotline ready.
And without a central plotline, what is there to plan for? I lack the drive to design character arcs, antagonists, etc etc without knowing where the story is going to go - if its going to go anywhere. I said mileage on that may vary, because for some people a coherent storyline may not be the aim. They may just want to play around with their characters, and there's nothing wrong with slice of life if you enjoy it. I just don't, not in this case. So what it comes down to for ME is this:
Either we need to go on hiatus so that Zombie has time to actually shape a story and not feel like he's constantly behind. He needs time to design story arcs, important missions, and the like - so that everything extra like Blackout's wonderful missions orbits around that rather than nebulous float around a blank story structure.
Or we need to decide soon to run this story completely differently than the expectation I've had. We need to decide to just tell individual character stories, and ask ourselves how we want to do that. That's new ground so I don't have a lot to say there, but that has to happen if the first option isn't possible.
But either way, I'm acknowledging my own paralysis for transparency's sake. There are things I really want to do in this story with character interactions. I've loved what I've done so far. But I can't move forward without some confidence that there is a forward to move towards. Apologies for the rambling, but I figured I should explain why I haven't been able to produce content, despite really liking my characters and everyone else's and having some ideas. In the end I don't have enough to go on, and so I'm raising this issue so that it gets addressed one way or the other.
If you bore with me to the end of this, appreciated. That's all.