I come to you all with news I am sure will disappoint everyone, possibly anger some, and likely cost me a friend or two (or three or four).
With my inconsistent mood, need to adjust to meds, need to set up regular therapy appointments, need to get my physical health in check, need to up my job search efforts, and again, need to adjust to the three new medications I take to keep myself from having to be hospitalized again, I half reluctantly decided to... leave the Vanguard of Forseti RP. I know this will upset so many people, but you seem to be doing so well without me, that at least I can be sure my departure would not mean its end.
This decision comes with two very important questions. The first is "Who will take over my position as GM?". I naturally have little say in the final decision, but I truly feel you should go with DarkGemini24601. I know he isn't perfect. Gem, I hope you have been working on those issues of oversensitivity and letting things go. That said, he is, without a doubt, the most qualified for the position at this time. I am surprised by the degree of dedication and hard work seen in someone so young. I would never have made it through the first season without his help, and he put so much more work into this season then me, he would probably be better off as GM then me even if I stayed. He has the knowledge, the dedication, and the heart to keep this thing alive in my absence. As for assistant GM, that is naturally up to the GM, but I would recommend MarineAvenger.
The second question is one of my characters, and what to do with them. Again, that is not up to me, and you guys are free to ignore them, retcon them out of existence, kill them off, or whatever you want. However, it would mean a lot to me if at least some of them were adopted, even if as minor characters. Astasha and Frederick should go to Gem as he is the most knowledgeable about who they are and what my intentions with them were, even if he decides not to have them follow that path, and Aya should go to Marine, as she is tied to one of his side characters. As for the others, do with them what you will, but if you guys do decide to keep using them, I have a few suggestions as to who could take them:
Brigid: Gem or Marine
Korra: Marine or Adramma
Alice: Marine
Mikhail: Gem
Baka: Marine or Frost
Rei: Gem, Pixy, or Prisma
Terratorra: Pixy or Dahl
I also had a eleventh character, a Humiliata, that I had planned, and I will send a PM to Gem and Marine with her bio and first post in case they want to use her or think someone else would do her justice. I feel I have posted enough with these characters to give a general idea of what they are like. But again, it is all your guys' decision whether to use any of them or not.
Finally, please understand that this is not goodbye. I love you all too much for it to be goodbye. I hope that my mental health will improve to a point where I can at least participate in a smaller RP (just not in the leadership position). I had one in mind with Gem and Marine, in fact (you know which one, though I need time to recover from my ordeal, as I said). In addition, not only do I love love LOVE to help you guys when you need help with something, but as you guys are my support network. It might sound selfish, but I still NEED you guys. The support you give me is what I use to get through my harder days. As such, while I will not be on this sight regularly for a while, likely only stopping by to read the story, I want you guys to have my email. It is fflover8@yahoo.com. Again, it is fflover8@yahoo.com. Please email me if you have any questions on one of my characters, want some advice on the RP, or you simply want to talk, whether that being the need to get something off your chest, or simply wanting to shoot the breeze. I'll assume I still have the support of anyone that sends me an email, and be sure to save them. While I will not be on this sight regularly, I will check my email several times a day. If we need to have an in-depth talk, we always have the google docs.
Remember that I care about all of you, and this was not an easy decision to make, but I need to fix myself right now. I hope to speak with you guys soon. Maybe I'll even get a chance to work on the fantasy based story I started in High School and post it here. Maybe my meds will help me get on track in a month's time. Who knows? Wish me luck, because I am wishing it to all of you.
I come to you all with news I am sure will disappoint everyone, possibly anger some, and likely cost me a friend or two (or three or four).
With my inconsistent mood, need to adjust to meds, need to set up regular therapy appointments, need to get my physical health in check, need to up my job search efforts, and again, need to adjust to the three new medications I take to keep myself from having to be hospitalized again, I half reluctantly decided to... leave the Vanguard of Forseti RP. I know this will upset so many people, but you seem to be doing so well without me, that at least I can be sure my departure would not mean its end.
This decision comes with two very important questions. The first is "Who will take over my position as GM?". I naturally have little say in the final decision, but I truly feel you should go with DarkGemini24601. I know he isn't perfect. Gem, I hope you have been working on those issues of oversensitivity and letting things go. That said, he is, without a doubt, the most qualified for the position at this time. I am surprised by the degree of dedication and hard work seen in someone so young. I would never have made it through the first season without his help, and he put so much more work into this season then me, he would probably be better off as GM then me even if I stayed. He has the knowledge, the dedication, and the heart to keep this thing alive in my absence. As for assistant GM, that is naturally up to the GM, but I would recommend MarineAvenger.
The second question is one of my characters, and what to do with them. Again, that is not up to me, and you guys are free to ignore them, retcon them out of existence, kill them off, or whatever you want. However, it would mean a lot to me if at least some of them were adopted, even if as minor characters. Astasha and Frederick should go to Gem as he is the most knowledgeable about who they are and what my intentions with them were, even if he decides not to have them follow that path, and Aya should go to Marine, as she is tied to one of his side characters. As for the others, do with them what you will, but if you guys do decide to keep using them, I have a few suggestions as to who could take them:
Brigid: Gem or Marine
Korra: Marine or Adramma
Alice: Marine
Mikhail: Gem
Baka: Marine or Frost
Rei: Gem, Pixy, or Prisma
Terratorra: Pixy or Dahl
I also had a eleventh character, a Humiliata, that I had planned, and I will send a PM to Gem and Marine with her bio and first post in case they want to use her or think someone else would do her justice. I feel I have posted enough with these characters to give a general idea of what they are like. But again, it is all your guys' decision whether to use any of them or not.
Finally, please understand that this is not goodbye. I love you all too much for it to be goodbye. I hope that my mental health will improve to a point where I can at least participate in a smaller RP (just not in the leadership position). I had one in mind with Gem and Marine, in fact (you know which one, though I need time to recover from my ordeal, as I said). In addition, not only do I love love LOVE to help you guys when you need help with something, but as you guys are my support network. It might sound selfish, but I still NEED you guys. The support you give me is what I use to get through my harder days. As such, while I will not be on this sight regularly for a while, likely only stopping by to read the story, I want you guys to have my email. It is fflover8@yahoo.com. Again, it is fflover8@yahoo.com. Please email me if you have any questions on one of my characters, want some advice on the RP, or you simply want to talk, whether that being the need to get something off your chest, or simply wanting to shoot the breeze. I'll assume I still have the support of anyone that sends me an email, and be sure to save them. While I will not be on this sight regularly, I will check my email several times a day. If we need to have an in-depth talk, we always have the google docs.
Remember that I care about all of you, and this was not an easy decision to make, but I need to fix myself right now. I hope to speak with you guys soon. Maybe I'll even get a chance to work on the fantasy based story I started in High School and post it here. Maybe my meds will help me get on track in a month's time. Who knows? Wish me luck, because I am wishing it to all of you.
I come to you all with news I am sure will disappoint everyone, possibly anger some, and likely cost me a friend or two (or three or four).
With my inconsistent mood, need to adjust to meds, need to set up regular therapy appointments, need to get my physical health in check, need to up my job search efforts, and again, need to adjust to the three new medications I take to keep myself from having to be hospitalized again, I half reluctantly decided to... leave the Vanguard of Forseti RP. I know this will upset so many people, but you seem to be doing so well without me, that at least I can be sure my departure would not mean its end.
This decision comes with two very important questions. The first is "Who will take over my position as GM?". I naturally have little say in the final decision, but I truly feel you should go with DarkGemini24601. I know he isn't perfect. Gem, I hope you have been working on those issues of oversensitivity and letting things go. That said, he is, without a doubt, the most qualified for the position at this time. I am surprised by the degree of dedication and hard work seen in someone so young. I would never have made it through the first season without his help, and he put so much more work into this season then me, he would probably be better off as GM then me even if I stayed. He has the knowledge, the dedication, and the heart to keep this thing alive in my absence. As for assistant GM, that is naturally up to the GM, but I would recommend MarineAvenger.
The second question is one of my characters, and what to do with them. Again, that is not up to me, and you guys are free to ignore them, retcon them out of existence, kill them off, or whatever you want. However, it would mean a lot to me if at least some of them were adopted, even if as minor characters. Astasha and Frederick should go to Gem as he is the most knowledgeable about who they are and what my intentions with them were, even if he decides not to have them follow that path, and Aya should go to Marine, as she is tied to one of his side characters. As for the others, do with them what you will, but if you guys do decide to keep using them, I have a few suggestions as to who could take them:
Brigid: Gem or Marine
Korra: Marine or Adramma
Alice: Marine
Mikhail: Gem
Baka: Marine or Frost
Rei: Gem, Pixy, or Prisma
Terratorra: Pixy or Dahl
I also had a eleventh character, a Humiliata, that I had planned, and I will send a PM to Gem and Marine with her bio and first post in case they want to use her or think someone else would do her justice. I feel I have posted enough with these characters to give a general idea of what they are like. But again, it is all your guys' decision whether to use any of them or not.
Finally, please understand that this is not goodbye. I love you all too much for it to be goodbye. I hope that my mental health will improve to a point where I can at least participate in a smaller RP (just not in the leadership position). I had one in mind with Gem and Marine, in fact (you know which one, though I need time to recover from my ordeal, as I said). In addition, not only do I love love LOVE to help you guys when you need help with something, but as you guys are my support network. It might sound selfish, but I still NEED you guys. The support you give me is what I use to get through my harder days. As such, while I will not be on this sight regularly for a while, likely only stopping by to read the story, I want you guys to have my email. It is fflover8@yahoo.com. Again, it is fflover8@yahoo.com. Please email me if you have any questions on one of my characters, want some advice on the RP, or you simply want to talk, whether that being the need to get something off your chest, or simply wanting to shoot the breeze. I'll assume I still have the support of anyone that sends me an email, and be sure to save them. While I will not be on this sight regularly, I will check my email several times a day. If we need to have an in-depth talk, we always have the google docs.
Remember that I care about all of you, and this was not an easy decision to make, but I need to fix myself right now. I hope to speak with you guys soon. Maybe I'll even get a chance to work on the fantasy based story I started in High School and post it here. Maybe my meds will help me get on track in a month's time. Who knows? Wish me luck, because I am wishing it to all of you.
Rei is the head of the science department. I'd rather not have one person controlling the heads of both of our main civilian departments, just as a general rule.
Rei is the head of the science department. I'd rather not have one person controlling the heads of both of our main civilian departments, just as a general rule.
I come to you all with news I am sure will disappoint everyone, possibly anger some, and likely cost me a friend or two (or three or four).
With my inconsistent mood, need to adjust to meds, need to set up regular therapy appointments, need to get my physical health in check, need to up my job search efforts, and again, need to adjust to the three new medications I take to keep myself from having to be hospitalized again, I half reluctantly decided to... leave the Vanguard of Forseti RP. I know this will upset so many people, but you seem to be doing so well without me, that at least I can be sure my departure would not mean its end.
This decision comes with two very important questions. The first is "Who will take over my position as GM?". I naturally have little say in the final decision, but I truly feel you should go with DarkGemini24601. I know he isn't perfect. Gem, I hope you have been working on those issues of oversensitivity and letting things go. That said, he is, without a doubt, the most qualified for the position at this time. I am surprised by the degree of dedication and hard work seen in someone so young. I would never have made it through the first season without his help, and he put so much more work into this season then me, he would probably be better off as GM then me even if I stayed. He has the knowledge, the dedication, and the heart to keep this thing alive in my absence. As for assistant GM, that is naturally up to the GM, but I would recommend MarineAvenger.
The second question is one of my characters, and what to do with them. Again, that is not up to me, and you guys are free to ignore them, retcon them out of existence, kill them off, or whatever you want. However, it would mean a lot to me if at least some of them were adopted, even if as minor characters. Astasha and Frederick should go to Gem as he is the most knowledgeable about who they are and what my intentions with them were, even if he decides not to have them follow that path, and Aya should go to Marine, as she is tied to one of his side characters. As for the others, do with them what you will, but if you guys do decide to keep using them, I have a few suggestions as to who could take them:
Brigid: Gem or Marine
Korra: Marine or Adramma
Alice: Marine
Mikhail: Gem
Baka: Marine or Frost
Rei: Gem, Pixy, or Prisma
Terratorra: Pixy or Dahl
I also had a eleventh character, a Humiliata, that I had planned, and I will send a PM to Gem and Marine with her bio and first post in case they want to use her or think someone else would do her justice. I feel I have posted enough with these characters to give a general idea of what they are like. But again, it is all your guys' decision whether to use any of them or not.
Finally, please understand that this is not goodbye. I love you all too much for it to be goodbye. I hope that my mental health will improve to a point where I can at least participate in a smaller RP (just not in the leadership position). I had one in mind with Gem and Marine, in fact (you know which one, though I need time to recover from my ordeal, as I said). In addition, not only do I love love LOVE to help you guys when you need help with something, but as you guys are my support network. It might sound selfish, but I still NEED you guys. The support you give me is what I use to get through my harder days. As such, while I will not be on this sight regularly for a while, likely only stopping by to read the story, I want you guys to have my email. It is fflover8@yahoo.com. Again, it is fflover8@yahoo.com. Please email me if you have any questions on one of my characters, want some advice on the RP, or you simply want to talk, whether that being the need to get something off your chest, or simply wanting to shoot the breeze. I'll assume I still have the support of anyone that sends me an email, and be sure to save them. While I will not be on this sight regularly, I will check my email several times a day. If we need to have an in-depth talk, we always have the google docs.
Remember that I care about all of you, and this was not an easy decision to make, but I need to fix myself right now. I hope to speak with you guys soon. Maybe I'll even get a chance to work on the fantasy based story I started in High School and post it here. Maybe my meds will help me get on track in a month's time. Who knows? Wish me luck, because I am wishing it to all of you.
I come to you all with news I am sure will disappoint everyone, possibly anger some, and likely cost me a friend or two (or three or four).
With my inconsistent mood, need to adjust to meds, need to set up regular therapy appointments, need to get my physical health in check, need to up my job search efforts, and again, need to adjust to the three new medications I take to keep myself from having to be hospitalized again, I half reluctantly decided to... leave the Vanguard of Forseti RP. I know this will upset so many people, but you seem to be doing so well without me, that at least I can be sure my departure would not mean its end.
This decision comes with two very important questions. The first is "Who will take over my position as GM?". I naturally have little say in the final decision, but I truly feel you should go with DarkGemini24601. I know he isn't perfect. Gem, I hope you have been working on those issues of oversensitivity and letting things go. That said, he is, without a doubt, the most qualified for the position at this time. I am surprised by the degree of dedication and hard work seen in someone so young. I would never have made it through the first season without his help, and he put so much more work into this season then me, he would probably be better off as GM then me even if I stayed. He has the knowledge, the dedication, and the heart to keep this thing alive in my absence. As for assistant GM, that is naturally up to the GM, but I would recommend MarineAvenger.
The second question is one of my characters, and what to do with them. Again, that is not up to me, and you guys are free to ignore them, retcon them out of existence, kill them off, or whatever you want. However, it would mean a lot to me if at least some of them were adopted, even if as minor characters. Astasha and Frederick should go to Gem as he is the most knowledgeable about who they are and what my intentions with them were, even if he decides not to have them follow that path, and Aya should go to Marine, as she is tied to one of his side characters. As for the others, do with them what you will, but if you guys do decide to keep using them, I have a few suggestions as to who could take them:
Brigid: Gem or Marine
Korra: Marine or Adramma
Alice: Marine
Mikhail: Gem
Baka: Marine or Frost
Rei: Gem, Pixy, or Prisma
Terratorra: Pixy or Dahl
I also had a eleventh character, a Humiliata, that I had planned, and I will send a PM to Gem and Marine with her bio and first post in case they want to use her or think someone else would do her justice. I feel I have posted enough with these characters to give a general idea of what they are like. But again, it is all your guys' decision whether to use any of them or not.
Finally, please understand that this is not goodbye. I love you all too much for it to be goodbye. I hope that my mental health will improve to a point where I can at least participate in a smaller RP (just not in the leadership position). I had one in mind with Gem and Marine, in fact (you know which one, though I need time to recover from my ordeal, as I said). In addition, not only do I love love LOVE to help you guys when you need help with something, but as you guys are my support network. It might sound selfish, but I still NEED you guys. The support you give me is what I use to get through my harder days. As such, while I will not be on this sight regularly for a while, likely only stopping by to read the story, I want you guys to have my email. It is fflover8@yahoo.com. Again, it is fflover8@yahoo.com. Please email me if you have any questions on one of my characters, want some advice on the RP, or you simply want to talk, whether that being the need to get something off your chest, or simply wanting to shoot the breeze. I'll assume I still have the support of anyone that sends me an email, and be sure to save them. While I will not be on this sight regularly, I will check my email several times a day. If we need to have an in-depth talk, we always have the google docs.
Remember that I care about all of you, and this was not an easy decision to make, but I need to fix myself right now. I hope to speak with you guys soon. Maybe I'll even get a chance to work on the fantasy based story I started in High School and post it here. Maybe my meds will help me get on track in a month's time. Who knows? Wish me luck, because I am wishing it to all of you.
Well... fuck.I come to you all with news I am sure will disappoint everyone, possibly anger some, and likely cost me a friend or two (or three or four).
With my inconsistent mood, need to adjust to meds, need to set up regular therapy appointments, need to get my physical health in check, need to up my job search efforts, and again, need to adjust to the three new medications I take to keep myself from having to be hospitalized again, I half reluctantly decided to... leave the Vanguard of Forseti RP. I know this will upset so many people, but you seem to be doing so well without me, that at least I can be sure my departure would not mean its end.
This decision comes with two very important questions. The first is "Who will take over my position as GM?". I naturally have little say in the final decision, but I truly feel you should go with DarkGemini24601. I know he isn't perfect. Gem, I hope you have been working on those issues of oversensitivity and letting things go. That said, he is, without a doubt, the most qualified for the position at this time. I am surprised by the degree of dedication and hard work seen in someone so young. I would never have made it through the first season without his help, and he put so much more work into this season then me, he would probably be better off as GM then me even if I stayed. He has the knowledge, the dedication, and the heart to keep this thing alive in my absence. As for assistant GM, that is naturally up to the GM, but I would recommend MarineAvenger.
The second question is one of my characters, and what to do with them. Again, that is not up to me, and you guys are free to ignore them, retcon them out of existence, kill them off, or whatever you want. However, it would mean a lot to me if at least some of them were adopted, even if as minor characters. Astasha and Frederick should go to Gem as he is the most knowledgeable about who they are and what my intentions with them were, even if he decides not to have them follow that path, and Aya should go to Marine, as she is tied to one of his side characters. As for the others, do with them what you will, but if you guys do decide to keep using them, I have a few suggestions as to who could take them:
Brigid: Gem or Marine
Korra: Marine or Adramma
Alice: Marine
Mikhail: Gem
Baka: Marine or Frost
Rei: Gem, Pixy, or Prisma
Terratorra: Pixy or Dahl
I also had a eleventh character, a Humiliata, that I had planned, and I will send a PM to Gem and Marine with her bio and first post in case they want to use her or think someone else would do her justice. I feel I have posted enough with these characters to give a general idea of what they are like. But again, it is all your guys' decision whether to use any of them or not.
Finally, please understand that this is not goodbye. I love you all too much for it to be goodbye. I hope that my mental health will improve to a point where I can at least participate in a smaller RP (just not in the leadership position). I had one in mind with Gem and Marine, in fact (you know which one, though I need time to recover from my ordeal, as I said). In addition, not only do I love love LOVE to help you guys when you need help with something, but as you guys are my support network. It might sound selfish, but I still NEED you guys. The support you give me is what I use to get through my harder days. As such, while I will not be on this sight regularly for a while, likely only stopping by to read the story, I want you guys to have my email. It is fflover8@yahoo.com. Again, it is fflover8@yahoo.com. Please email me if you have any questions on one of my characters, want some advice on the RP, or you simply want to talk, whether that being the need to get something off your chest, or simply wanting to shoot the breeze. I'll assume I still have the support of anyone that sends me an email, and be sure to save them. While I will not be on this sight regularly, I will check my email several times a day. If we need to have an in-depth talk, we always have the google docs.
Remember that I care about all of you, and this was not an easy decision to make, but I need to fix myself right now. I hope to speak with you guys soon. Maybe I'll even get a chance to work on the fantasy based story I started in High School and post it here. Maybe my meds will help me get on track in a month's time. Who knows? Wish me luck, because I am wishing it to all of you.
